Life has been quite a blur for me lately. The days have started to blend together into this long period of waiting and hoping. The sad part is, I don’t know what I am waiting for, what I am hoping to do, or where I am trying to go. But I know that there is a journey ahead of me, and my only focus right now is getting on the right path. I have succumbed to myΒ introvert tendencies, and I have come to think that it is ok that all I do is sleep, work, eat, and repeat, because nothing else matters until I get to wherever it is that I am going. I’m trying to stay focused on the future, in order to block out the pain of my present. I’m trying to stay positive and figure out who I want to be, and where I want to go.

My only issue is, I don’t know how to do that. I have hopes and desires, and I dream just like any other person. But I’m still trying to figure out what all of that means. It really is true that we don’t always know “what we want to be when we grow up” until later in life. There have been so many times where I thought I knew for sure what I wanted to do, and who I wanted to be. But it just keeps changing as I grow and experience new things. But at what point will I finally know, “yes, this is it”? I’m hoping it will be at just the right moment, when everything falls into place, but I’m not sure how realistic that is.

Desiree

I have changed so much in the past year alone.I’m a completely different person than I was on this day last year. Which is just crazy to me. I made choices back then that I look back on now wishing that I knew what I know now. My hopes and dreams have taken a drastic turn, for the better I think, and what I wanted back then seems so small compared to what I am reaching for now. I feel like I’ve hit this point in life where I feel like I am really growing up, and I am finding out who I am, and I am ready to get serious about life.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m excited for what’s ahead for me. I am looking forward to big things, but getting to this point in my life has not been easy, and I still have a long way to go. After seeing how much I am able to go through in a year, and how much I am capable of changing because of theΒ things that have happened to me, I really do feel like I can accomplish whatever I set my mind to. For me, it’s just a matter of figuring out what it is I want to accomplish, and then making it happen.

Have you ever felt like this? How did you handle it? Let me know, I need some encouragement! xoxo

Desiree

  • Your definitely not alone. I’ve started a new chapter in my life and it’s thrown my for a loop. I’m not sure what direction to go either. However I do think we eventually figure it out and are usually happier, as long as we stay true to ourselves.

    • Great point Angela, thank you! That’s definitely something that I will try to remember when I get overwhelmed by the craziness that is my life right now. Things will work out eventually, for me and for you!

  • Sheryl Nadler Sheppard

    That is called life. Some days are so good and others not so much. When you are on the not so much kind of days, try to find something that will make you laugh. That is always helpful!

    • I’ll definitely keep that in mind! Thank you Sheryl!

  • Jordyn Sifferman

    I have felt the way you feel now so many times. Life is a roller coaster not because it is always dramatic but because there are highs and lows. In my lows I feel so confused and lost (and sometimes hopeless). I’ve found that I need to take time to myself to cry, to overanalyze and feel confused…it isn’t fun but it is necessary! I think you’re right when you say life is a journey. It takes time to create who we are and discover what we want!

    • Thats exactly where I’m at Jordyn! You are so right, it is a roller coaster. I don’t think I’ve experienced a low like the past year of my life, but I’m hoping it means there are amazing things ahead for me! I’ve definitely given myself time to cry, and now I just want to start focused and look forward.